
~SHIRLEY~

Time to change back =D
Monday, February 16, 2009
3:29 AM
Today i finally realise something
I realise i changed within tis 4 months
Actualli i nv realise tat
Is my sec bestfriend make me realise it
Yea
I admit after breakin
I go drinkin more
And everytime ended up drunk
Start my 1st stick
And even went out wit online ppl
But i still hab the fear of meetin new ppl
My sec friend told me smokin is realli a bad impression to ppl
And it aso hurts the ppl around me
And all i start smokin is cos of a guy
A lost R.S
Though i nv smoke le
But i smoke b4
And the day b4 i smoke again cos i am drunk
I realli dunno wad into me
I am not a smoker neither do i noe hw to smoke
And i smoke in the public when i am drunk
I can't imagine hw shameless and embarrassin i cause
Hais
So i decide now
I wan to change
From today onwards
I will nv touch the sticks again
So wad if i lost my principle(smoking)
I can stop smokin from now on
And forever no smokin at all
And i will try my best not to drink cos of him again
Is the past le
And is goin 4 months
It is time to move forward
As for the 2 online friends i met
I onli gt 2 choices
1st is dun contact anymore
2nd is continue to contact if they r worth keepin as friends
And lastly i won go and meet anyone from online again
Haas
I wan to go back to who am i
Yea
I feel it quite embarrassin to say out all the mistakes i done
But if i nv admit or realise it
I won be able to face the mistakes
I will change =D
I dun wan anyone to think bad abt me
Cos i am not
I will prove to u all
I will be back to normal
Hees
No tearin no drunk no smoke no sad le